|I Say A Little Prayer
Ca sĩ: Diana King
As I did in the past, for always, people will share when they want to share. But with whom, is the problem. And today, I have the mood to share, but I think it in an other way, people will listen when they want to listen, and read when they want to read… and advise/comment when they are in the mood to share
What do you think a friend is?
I have a big circle of friends, from schools, classes, courses, blogs, pen-pals, bars and even streets. But I am rather weird (someone said that). I dont like to talk much to stranger or some other weird guys. And I dont like to make friends with people who I dont talk twice (sorry). Just two reason to explain why I dont talk for the second time. One, I dont like their behavior at first sight :D. Two, my sixth sense says I should not make friends with them.
So, it is easy for me to define ‘friend’ – Friend is the one I talk (openly) for the third time. That’s it. Remember the word OPENLY. because sometimes I must meet someone (that sucks) randomly and it was fucking bad to talk to them.
Friendship does not base on being a friend
Friendship, should be derived from knowing each other, and thinking good to each other. Someone told me that, to have a good friendship is more difficult but necessary than a relationship. Yes, that’s why I always put SOME of my friends to the first line, before writing my boyfriend’s name. (Im such a bad girlfriend, rite?)
Sometimes, it is the ‘share’ and ‘listen’. Now and then, it is the ‘understand without talk’. Often, it refers to ‘alike’. On the other hand, Closefriend is ‘hurt’ and ‘healable’. The most important, ‘trust’ and ‘honest’
Therefore, closefriend is the fusion of all those definitions
1- ‘She’ was my closefriend, who is side-by-side with me 3 years ago. We always be side by side as twins. We have the similar bull shit favorites. No one thought we could seperate.
We hurt each other, seemed no more friendship. One day, she called and asked me to stay over at her cousin’s house with her. Then, we talked all nite, about things that had happened for months, when we were strangers.
The scar was healed…
Now, we do not have much time to talk although we still sit in the same classes, play the same games, read the same books, and live in the same districts. On the other hand, I still know what’s going on and what she thinks, for real. And she is the only one I talked when I wanted to share. Just a short talk, but she seems to understand all the things. And stand by me for always, i believe .
She – will leave me for an other new life next year. Shit! At first, I thought I would bring my pilows and blanket to her house to stay over with her – to kick her husband out of the house :D. But now, I feel so bad. What if she can not go out with us in the parties where there are so many handsome and funny guys waiting =))) . What if she must cook for dinner for her husband when I need her to cafe with. What if she can not go shopping with me because she needs to save money for her home’s future (children – what I exactly mean). What if …. Whatever if makes me want to break her damn plan !!!!
Anyway, she’s the only one, who I share my damn things now. And i also have her some little secrets (which i never know if anyone else knows). Whatever…
2- ‘He’ – is an other example of closefriend. I have so many ‘hes’ because I am weird, and not good at caring my female friends. 😉 At the moment, when I do not talk to many ‘hes’, I believe that those three ‘hes’ are always easy to talk when I want to talk 😛
– A very gentle man. Looks like Harry Potter. (sounds sweet). I hate his bad feelings with the chicks he met – very damnly. But I love to hear that he has a galfriend now. I will feel better if he gets the job he wishes in the near future 🙂 In the late night with instrumental music like this, I miss you badly… and will feel worse if you leave Hanoi (again) for the South. 😦
– Late sleeper as I am. He’s not in Vietnam. Always invisible. Only god knows where he is, how he feels and what he does. We only contact for 3 things – photos, to make sure I am fine. Go moku – for fun and challenge each other ^^. and, chat-linh-tinh, for nothing. 😉 But i miss him badly (it was two Tet ago that I hung out and talked to him – er…) If you know who you are, call me right away when you’re back, ok? You are such VIP that I can not have a date with you since then. (How xấu tính you are)
– The third, I will not write down here. No need to talk, you know what i think, rite? You’re always on my mind 🙂
Love is such
a big thing to me. Then, it will be written in the next entry, when I am ready to share 🙂